Today I sent him a message. It was six days since the last message. It was his birthday you know. Tonight's contained information that I thought he would find interesting: "Alright"
No further comment. Not even a period to end the thought.
A period means stop. No period.
While his thought might linger according to the absence of a single dot, this gives all the signals for me to stop my thoughts. Well, my thoughts to him via Facebook messages.
With nice guys, it takes a while. The camel's back is strong because its the right thing to do, to be strong. The kind thing to do... the nice. It's nice. Responding. It's a nice thing to do from nice guys. Not to ignore a woman's texts, even if you want to ignore her.
Let's see how long it took me to break this crush. I crush crushes so I can stop crushing by crushing so hard that the nice crush decides to crush nice. A uninterested one-word reply is not ignoring, but its not really nice either. Not responding means you might respond-- hope. Responding terribly means that's all it folks.
I have yet to figure out who is my audience and frankly I don't care. You all will probably think at this moment, "But Karen, aren't you overracting? Like what is even going on?"
*I am tired, so yeah totes probs.*
Basically, there is a guy. I like this guy. Thought he liked me back. Very exciting. Got bold. Got rejected. Acted like I don't care. I care. But friendship pls? He was very confused. He rejected me, is she unaffected? Yes, I am a stone-cold, heartless, friendship machine... be my friend 'kay? He supposes. He goes away to a foreign country for a month. Chatting is always initiated by me, but he responses... until he doesn't.
May 1st (the day after he rejected me) to May 26th, I initiated a conversation 10 times via Facebook messenger.
Six days ago he responded in 5 words. "Thanks Karen, so fun adventuring"
Today he responses "Alright"
Tomorrow? There will be no tomorrow. I need to get over this now.
...oh wait, he just like my Facebook post.
*burns Facebook*
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